OK I am sick of it....

I am so tired of starting stuff and not following thru, its so frustrating to me. I hate that about me. I need to be held accountable. I need to make changes. Today is day 1, yes I know I have said it before, but this time is the last time. I am done being a failure. With that being said, I am back to exercising, eating healthy and not spending insanely. 

I guess my final thought on this topic is Enough is Enough. Its time to focus on things that make me happy, like living off the closet!  :)  

The weekend was pretty busy so I didn't get much crafting / creating done, i did get one of the closets cleaned out and I found a few items that I forgot I had so this week will be spent making gifts.

The one thing I did get around to doing was making a couple apothecary jars for my bathroom. 

I am also going to work on making a doggy bed for my furry niece Rue. I am not super confident with this project, as I really don't know how to use my sewing machine, but I figure it cant be that hard, right? 

Hip Hip Horray its Friday!

Yesterday was an awesome day, I got to visit Kaitlyn on Campus, I got to see where she goes to school and where she works, we did some shopping, some walking and some hanging out. Kaitlyn's drive never ceases to amaze me, she is married, has 2 beautiful fur babies, lives over 2 hrs from any family, goes to school full time, works part time and never once skips a beat.

She went straight from college, obtaining a Bachelors degree, to law school and is now earning a teaching certificate, during that time she got married and had her appendix burst inside her body... The sweet girl leaves her house at 6 am in the morning and most days doesn't get back home until 9 pm. The amazing part is that 99.9% of the time she is happy and positive and and the .1 % of the time that she isn't, she usually is just tired and quiet. She truly inspires me and reminds me how easy I have it. Although she is 17 yrs younger than me, I wanna be just like her when "I grow up".

So after visiting her yesterday, I came home and did pretty much nothing. I am just now starting to feel better and decided to take it easy. This weekend will be filled with lots of crafty fun stuff, and I will make sure pics and ideas are posted. I am digging into the closets and I feel good about it.

On a quick side note, yesterday was my mom and dad's 47th wedding anniversary.

Unfortunately for my family, my father passed away in 2013. My heart felt heavy yesterday, I miss my father so much every day and I long to see him one more time every day of my life. As I get older and I think of him, I truly understand how misunderstood he was. I wish I could go back in time and make life easier on him, I am not sure how I could have done that, but in hindsight, I would have done anything I could to make him happy. I love you dad, may you continue to rest in peace. Thank you for being my dad.

Sooo Tired

I woke up feeling well enough to go to Columbus for work today. I was there by 7:30 am and was home around 4:30 pm, it is a 2 hr drive so not bad at all. On the way home, I could barely keep my eyes open, due to the health issues I have been dealing with, I have only gotten about 4 hrs of sleep a night lately, I am  hoping to God that I get 8 hrs tonight. I am going to go to Findlay to see my niece tomorrow and I cant wait. Love that girl! My sister, Kaitlyn's mom, Kellie and I are supposed to go, Kel texted me earlier and told me she wasn't feeling well. I have a feeling I'll  be going  alone. :(   I am not in the mood to drive 2 hrs alone, but opportunities are limited. 

I am not sure I'll get any crafts done tonight. I did get all the glass washed for the apothecary jars, but getting something done, may be a stretch.

I submitted my pictures for my DietBet. I have to lose 8 lbs in 25 days, so doable.  I paid 35.00 to play and if I lose the 8 lbs then I get my money, plus some back.  

Shopping was great today, well  lack of shopping. Go me! I bought nothing

Sorry for the short post peoples, I love you all but I cant stay awake, let alone think to type and explain my  projects.

Sorry! again... :(

My goal is to post something Monday thru Friday, but  last Friday was insane busy and this week is starting out not so good.. :( but I did do a few things using items out of the closet and my eating is going well, now if I could just get my over all health on track, I would  be batting 500. 

So I am sorry, I didn't mean to fall off the Blog Wagon again but life interfered.


The good news is, other than seriously needed items, and using some gift cards, I have not shopped for anything. Oh well I do take that back, I bought some Jamberry's, I really fell in love and I needed a pick  me up and I decided I needed to be rewarded for sticking to the low carb/sugar eating "BRING  DOWN THE TRIGLYCERIDES" plan. And they are sooo cute, they are monsters.

Jamberry Monster Mash

  Sorry the picture is a little blurry but you can see how adorbs they are. 



Last Friday my friend Julie and I got together to paint, we had done a lot of the Paint Nite / Wine and Canvas events and decided that we could  do a painting with out paying 45.00 so we bought some supplies and found a painting we both loved (we are both animal lovers, Hint Hint) and went to it. The end result was magnificent if I say so myself. Mine will be given away as a Christmas gift, to who is a secret, in case they are reading. :) 

Someone special will receive this painting from me for Christmas!

I really want to make a few Apothecary jars and some bracelets, plus I need to fix Will's niece, Riley's bracelets, I made them for her when she was 6 and now that she is 12 she needs some length, I am going to get creative and add something fun. I am not sure when I will get to all of this stuff. Like I mentioned above, I have some health things going on, nothing serious, more of an annoyance and nuisance.

Ok I gotta go make some money, see you all tomorrow (maybe, maybe not... I need to travel to Columbus for work, hopefully  I can, health stuff, So I cant promise a post)

P.s... I weighed myself.. I am down 3 lbs! 

Day Four

Today is day four of taking my eating, exercising and not shopping/spending serious... and I am slowly getting excited about it.   Yesterday for dinner, I had something that I normally would never eat, I had a piece of fish, a big portion of broccoli and carrots. It feels so good to eat healthy, well minus the undigested , nagging stomach ache feeling I have had since I ate at 6 pm yesterday  :(  Needless to say I didn't overly exercise, I did get in about 9,200 steps and stayed close to 1200 calories, so I don't feel to horrible.

I made an awesome fall wreath to hang on my front door yesterday and I also created my new Facebook page. "Stacie's crafty creations". Well my little sister created it, now I have to maintain it and get a bunch of crafts listed on it to sell. We will see....... 

Tonight after work I am going to treat myself to a massage, I bought a Groupon months ago, way before I started living off the closet, and  had tried several times to schedule it but could never find a good time. I don't know how much living off the closet Ill do tonight, I have a list of items I need to get done, due to a very very busy weekend, but maybe I'll sneak something in... I have a basket full of cosmetics I want to start using, and trying out, so maybe I will document some of the items I have and  do a few before and after pictures. Ill give my opinion on what is keep-able and what is trash-able .

I am going to attempt to make "mocked mashed potatoes" for dinner tonight, you replace cauliflower for the potatoes, it makes it healthier for someone like me who has high triglycerides, I need to severely reduce if not eliminate, sugar and carbs from my diet. I also am making my friend Julie and her family Gluten Free Banana Muffins. I am going to her house tomorrow night for a girls night in, we are going to attempt to paint a picture we found and she always feeds me a super healthy dinner, so I thought I would treat her to some muffins!  I will have pics of both the mashed cauli and muffins posted tomorrow. 

I also had an idea that I want to try in the next few weeks - you know when I am not busy working, creating crafts and gifts, eating healthy, working out, blogging, cleaning, etc....   haha. Anyways, one of the first posts I made on my blog were some pictures showing you all the closets I planned on living off of. The one closet was the master bedroom walk in closet and let me tell you it is packed to the rim with stuff; my idea is to take 4 of 5 items of clothing and pair them with different shoes, jewelry, scarves, jackets, accessories, I want to take a few pictures with different items and then post the pics and let others decide what looks best, get some feedback and suggestions on what looks the best and other idea on what would work the best.  I really like this idea, I think I will definitely do this.... but now I am having another thought......

I wonder how many people have blogs that nobody reads, I am sure I have nobody is regularly reading mine and at first I thought, "how sad" but then I thought, this is for me really, not anybody else so what is the difference and I made peace with my lonely lil blog, ok ok ok  I cant lie, I secretly wish 1,000.000  people would read it.. regardless if I want a million readers or not, if nobody does read it, I guess my idea about reader feedback is not going to work...  :( Booooo  

Off to work, my fabulous friends....  see you tomorrow! 

Shouldnt this feel better

So last night and yesterday were really good days, I felt like I stuck to a healthy eating plan and I got a lot of exercise in and I also went to the dentist and came back with a good report, No Cavities! Yeah me! 

 After work I spent a lot of time doing things that needed to be done, I got some cleaning done, and I also got some crafts made for Christmas! Woohooo. 

Why don't I feel better, I feel overwhelmed, not crazy excited as I thought I would. I guess all things take time... right?  I wont give up on my healthy eating and working out, I cant take a risk dying... I will continue to live off my closest's. I am pretty disgusted with how bad my finances are... I found a bunch of jewelry patterns and plan on creating some jewelry this week and next week. I also plan on making some fall wreaths to possible sell. I actually made about 4 wreathes already but gave them to family.

I made 4 of these Fall Owl wreaths for family.  

 I am going to create a Facebook page for my crafts and jewelry so I can advertise and hopefully sell stuff.  I also started coupon-ing, like extreme coupon-ing.... I am hoping I can save money and use some of my budgeted grocery money to pay off debt. 

So for now I will leave you with a few pics of the Christmas Ornaments I made yesterday, these are for my older sister and her boyfriend for gifts. I still need to add some ribbon but I am storing them in  a box until Christmas time and didn't want the bows to get wrinkled . 

Feeling good

I felt that mentally yesterday was a good day, I made 1000.00 worth of payments toward credit card debt, I wish I could say I was close to being paid off in full, but I am not even close to being debt free. I had an altercation (maybe not really an altercation, but a situation) with my little sister Hollie. I loaned her money to buy a new (used) car, and I had to mail the dealership a check, I barely have enough in my account to cover the check when it clears; the agreement was that when she got paid she would be a certain amount in my account weekly. She gets paid Thursday night / Friday morning. I expected money in my account on Friday morning, but since she works midnight shift I know that sometimes it is hard to get up and get to the bank, so when the money wasn't in my account I wasn't mad at all,  I just told her to put it in on Saturday. On Saturday I got a text from her saying that she incorrectly set her alarm and she didn't get to the bank, I still didn't get mad, I told her to just make sure she got there on Monday. Yesterday when the money still want put into my account I was mad and I was harsh and aggressive, which I didn't enjoy but if the check clears for the car and I don't have enough money in my account, I am going to be the one who has to pay the consequences. I checked my account this morning and the payment is in there and I feel bad, but I also feel taken advantage of, and I don't like that feeling. When I tell someone I am going to do something for them, I do it. I put my own wants/ needs aside and do what I need to do. I guess I expect everyone to be like me and I know that's impossible, but I feel like if someone knows how I am, they should do what makes me happy.  

I need to work on this!

So enough of the negative stuff, I hate being negative and "talking bad" about others, especially those I love, but I guess venting or getting issues off of my chest is a good thing. 

I did really well with my eating plan yesterday. Will (my boyfriend) made Chili for dinner, he did such an amazing job, it was so good, and healthy. I have been so emotional and insecure the last few weeks, Thank you Hormones!!!!  just living with me is probably a chore for him, so when he made us dinner I found it to be very super sweet. Don't get me wrong, Will helps out a lot around the house, him making Chili wasn't a huge milestone, it just was unexpected and very helpful.  I was able to work out when I got home instead of having to cook.

I am really struggling with how to find time to do all the things I love. I have no idea how moms do it. I am not much of a social person, so "going out" doesn't even get in the way of doing stuff. I just guess I have too many hobbies? is that possible? I tried setting up a schedule so I could "fit it all in" but geesh, I felt like doing the things I love turned into more of a chore than fun, I don't want it to be like that. So here are the things I am trying to fit into my life... Crafting / Jewelry Making, Reading, Exercising / Working out, Relaxing, Visiting with Family and Friends (when I said before I don't go out, I meant I am not one to go to bars, etc.) Volunteering, and last but not least, the occasional "being pampered"  (last week when I fell off the wagon, I may have purchased a few groupons for manicures, pedicures, etc.) On top of working 40 hrs a week plus 15 hrs commute time, and taking care of the house and grocery shopping, errand running, etc. I just cant find enough time to do what I love. Any suggestions on how to make it all work???

Will and I - 2010(ish) 

Its been awhile.....

It has been a while since I have written anything, a lot of that has to do with the fact that I fell off of the no shopping wagon, and when I say fell off, I mean took a nose dive so hard it still hurts. I am so ashamed. I realize I have a serious problem. Its so much more serious than I thought. I know I can conquer this issue, but it will take a lot of hard work and a lot of control damage needs to be done. I cant wait to be debt free and living more simple. I need to make a lot of changes in my life.. like not eating healthy foods and I need to start moving more, stop spending so much time TV watching .. by the way in case anybody was curious..  I haven't lost any weight and I had my triglycerides tested and after 3 months of medication, they went up, soooooo its a new beginning for me...I have no other options. :)

 I did manage to get some craft projects done, the last time I blogged I told you about a challenge my bead guild did and the theme was southwestern, well I showed you the earrings i made and the beads I was going to use for the bracelet but I didn't have the bracelet done yet, so here it is ... It seems like once I begin beading I become addicted so I also made another bracelet, not for the challenge just for fun, and here it is....

I also started on home made Christmas gifts, only have 1 done so far, but i am happy with it... Its for my sister and my nephew. I guess its not 100% done, I still have some touch up on the frame that needs done; I want to distress the frame, I had bought the frame on the clearance rack at Kohl's because it had a few scratches. Also in the picture the glue is still wet, so it looks super sloppy, but I am confident that it will look great when I am done.