Feeling good

I felt that mentally yesterday was a good day, I made 1000.00 worth of payments toward credit card debt, I wish I could say I was close to being paid off in full, but I am not even close to being debt free. I had an altercation (maybe not really an altercation, but a situation) with my little sister Hollie. I loaned her money to buy a new (used) car, and I had to mail the dealership a check, I barely have enough in my account to cover the check when it clears; the agreement was that when she got paid she would be a certain amount in my account weekly. She gets paid Thursday night / Friday morning. I expected money in my account on Friday morning, but since she works midnight shift I know that sometimes it is hard to get up and get to the bank, so when the money wasn't in my account I wasn't mad at all,  I just told her to put it in on Saturday. On Saturday I got a text from her saying that she incorrectly set her alarm and she didn't get to the bank, I still didn't get mad, I told her to just make sure she got there on Monday. Yesterday when the money still want put into my account I was mad and I was harsh and aggressive, which I didn't enjoy but if the check clears for the car and I don't have enough money in my account, I am going to be the one who has to pay the consequences. I checked my account this morning and the payment is in there and I feel bad, but I also feel taken advantage of, and I don't like that feeling. When I tell someone I am going to do something for them, I do it. I put my own wants/ needs aside and do what I need to do. I guess I expect everyone to be like me and I know that's impossible, but I feel like if someone knows how I am, they should do what makes me happy.  

I need to work on this!

So enough of the negative stuff, I hate being negative and "talking bad" about others, especially those I love, but I guess venting or getting issues off of my chest is a good thing. 

I did really well with my eating plan yesterday. Will (my boyfriend) made Chili for dinner, he did such an amazing job, it was so good, and healthy. I have been so emotional and insecure the last few weeks, Thank you Hormones!!!!  just living with me is probably a chore for him, so when he made us dinner I found it to be very super sweet. Don't get me wrong, Will helps out a lot around the house, him making Chili wasn't a huge milestone, it just was unexpected and very helpful.  I was able to work out when I got home instead of having to cook.

I am really struggling with how to find time to do all the things I love. I have no idea how moms do it. I am not much of a social person, so "going out" doesn't even get in the way of doing stuff. I just guess I have too many hobbies? is that possible? I tried setting up a schedule so I could "fit it all in" but geesh, I felt like doing the things I love turned into more of a chore than fun, I don't want it to be like that. So here are the things I am trying to fit into my life... Crafting / Jewelry Making, Reading, Exercising / Working out, Relaxing, Visiting with Family and Friends (when I said before I don't go out, I meant I am not one to go to bars, etc.) Volunteering, and last but not least, the occasional "being pampered"  (last week when I fell off the wagon, I may have purchased a few groupons for manicures, pedicures, etc.) On top of working 40 hrs a week plus 15 hrs commute time, and taking care of the house and grocery shopping, errand running, etc. I just cant find enough time to do what I love. Any suggestions on how to make it all work???

Will and I - 2010(ish)