So what was it that I did, you ask? Well I went one whole week with out being shopping! I went to a mall, a really nice, big mall with wonderful shops and I didn't buy anything!! Nothing at all. I also went into one of my favorite stores and passed on all kinds of goodies. I travel for work occasionally and the place where I usually end up at is Columbus, Ohio. There is a fabulous shopping mall there called Polaris and I had an hour to kill so I decided I would go to the mall so I could get some walking in (at least that is what I told myself). I thought I could make the most of my down time and I would get off my butt and do something with out getting all sweaty. Walking outside in the lovely 95 degree weather Ohio is having right now is just not an option, so mall walking is my only logically option. When I walked in the mall, I knew my plan to better myself by walking was a joke, there was no way I was going to be able to pass up all the wonderfulness in this beautiful building.. Each store was calling my name, signs in the window advertising the wonderful deals, how could I pass up all these little personal taunts! I really was having a hard time focusing, from one store front to another... I loved it all. The colors, the styles, the potential for of it. Unfortunately for me when I see a size negative 4 mannequin looking all grandiose in front of a store front wearing all the latest trendy clothes and jewelry, I imagine all my flaws melting away, all I have to do is buy the 200.00 outfit and then I am suddenly a super model, well that is until I get the clothes home and I realize that I am still an average size 12 and the super trendy top makes me look like a pregnant "trying to hard" 40 year old. Ugh... I am one of them!
I surprised myself on Monday. I walked thru that mall, my pace quick enough, that I felt as though I was almost getting a work out in, not so fast that I looked like I was running from something or someone, I saw all the clothes from the corner of my eyes, but I was motivated. I was doing something really good for my body and my wallet. I told myself " I don't need more clothes" I didn't hear them screaming at me to buy them and look like a model. I heard my brain saying to me, SAVE YOUR MONEY - Lose some more weight, and then maybe buy them clothes.?" So maybe that is all it took, one successful mall trip to get on the right path... I don't know but I do know that the same day as I was making the 2 hr trip back home, I had to use the restroom so bad, and as I was driving I was looking for a fast food restaurant to stop to use and I couldn't find any, but I did find a store... TJ Maxx, it is by far one of my favorite retail places and maybe that is what made me stop there, maybe subconsciously I felt like because I did so well at the mall that I deserved to treat myself to a little something. I owned that shopping trip also. I walked in there, found the restroom, used it and then browsed the clearance rack, I walked by the new fall items that were out and I walked right back out to my car. Who Am I?? I don't know where the motivation is coming from, but I do know I like it. I like how I feel when I can control what I buy, I like knowing I didn't "blow" $100.00 in one day! I am hoping this is the beginning of the new me.
I will report back to you next week and let you know if this is the new me, if I have finally found a way not to spend, if I have rounded a corner, found my groove..... Trust me, I am as curious as you are!
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